Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Grand Canyon

When we sit and think about the beauty of our country, I don't think we actually are prepared for the jaw-dropping awe that you are in when you are standing in front of sights like the Grand Canyon. I saw the Grand Canyon yesterday morning. I watched as the sun rose over it and slowly revealed the beauty of the canyon. How did God create this masterpiece?

The park is undergoing some reconstruction and had some fences up to keep us out of some areas, but of course, I didn't let that keep me from entering. We were there so early in the morning, that no workers were there, so we slid in around the fence and got some other views of the majestic beauty of the Grand Canyon, that others cannot see, so I was smiling.

I was with Jackie and Miranda, so I should have expected them to surprise me, but I wasn't ready for Jackie jumping over the fence that goes around the perimeter of the canyon. She and Miranda ventured out onto this boulder that appeared to me to drop straight off, and a fall from which would have killed them, but there was another level just below her that would have easily caught her had she fallen...before I knew, however, I was begging her to come back to the safety of the other side of the fence. Before I knew, she dangled her feet over the edge of this boulder and before I knew, she was dancing on the boulder...scaring me and being frightened, I was crying, begging her to return to where I was. I finally calmed down and took pictures of the girls and I will post those to this website, and replace the blood transfusion pictures!

So today I am back at Dr. Chawla's, reality takes it's place back in my life. The nurse is here to take my blood and I am forced to remember that I have cancer. While I was on my trip, I was in pain almost constantly, but it was okay because I was seeing America. We went through California, Arizona, New Mexico, Texas, Oklahoma and finally, Missouri. We saw the petrified forest and the Grand Canyon while on the trip, but while in Missouri, oh my goodness...Jackie made it her job to make sure I saw as much as Missouri as I could in the short time there. We went to the St. Louis Zoo...FREE! Free! It is free everyday! It is huge! I got a couple videos while there, including one of two endangered wild horses that decided to try to make some babies while I taped them....funny! She also took me to Sculpture Park, this amazing park with a trail to walk on and these beautiful sculptures that were apparently donated to the park by different artists. I got pictures of those too.

Jackie also took me to Viviano's. If you ever go to St. Louis, be sure to stop in at this little Italian diner. I got Jackie's favorite, Pasta con Broccoli. It was delicious! It is family owned and it isn't one of those places where you take a seat and then order. You order at the counter and then take a seat and they yell out your order number....I wasn't ready for the explosion of taste that made it's home on my palate. I think they used a vodka sauce, the pasta was small shells, with broccoli and mushrooms and then it was topped with a healthy sprinkling of romano and parmesan cheeses. I am going to try to re-create it at home this week.

Okay, so the nurse said my platelets were extremely low, which justifies all the bruises I have seen on my body as of late. I have to get a shot to increase my levels and return on Thursday to hopefully get better results and receive my monthly dose of chemo.

I also have some more homework to do. I don't want my life to be a life of chemo every 21 days, so I have been told to check into a gamma knife with a radiologist to explore the possibility of removing my tumors without cutting me! Imagine that! I don't know how it is done, but it sounds like a plan to me!

So, no chemo today. Waiting on the doctor to give me prescriptions for pain and sleep...and back home, to rest from my week of exploring the sites of America.


Friday, September 24, 2010

Getting Away

I did something that was on my bucket list. One of my friends from my support group passed away and about a month before she passed she told me to be certain to take the time to do the things I put on my bucket list...so I did. I went on a little road trip and have to say that I am having a great time. Yes, I am in more pain than I am ever in at home, but it's totally worth it.

My daughter decided to move home, probably because of my diagnosis, so I drove to her Dad's to pick her up and get her personal items...i.e., books and clothes. Her dear friend, Miranda came along for the ride and to help with the driving. We went to the zoo today and had an amazing day. I was so sore from the walking, but oh my God!

I still have the drive home, but plan on stopping to see some sights on the way home. Miranda is not enjoying the trip and wishes she was home now, but I hope to change that on the way home...by stopping frequently and actually seeing some awesome, jaw dropping, american treasures. She has never been to a cave dwelling, a cavern, the Grand Canyon, Crater Lake.

Loving this week! I feel like I am living instead of just surviving.

Getting Away

I did something that was on my bucket list. One of my friends from my support group passed away and about a month before she passed she told me to be certain to take the time to do the things I put on my bucket list...so I did. I went on a little road trip and have to say that I am having a great time. Yes, I am in more pain than I am ever in at home, but it's totally worth it.

My daughter decided to move home, probably because of my diagnosis, so I drove to her Dad's to pick her up and get her personal items...i.e., books and clothes. Her dear friend, Miranda came along for the ride and to help with the driving. We went to the zoo today and had an amazing day. I was so sore from the walking, but oh my God!

I still have the drive home, but plan on stopping to see some sights on the way home. Miranda is not enjoying the trip and wishes she was home now, but I hope to change that on the way home...by stopping frequently and actually seeing some awesome, jaw dropping, american treasures. She has never been to a cave dwelling, a cavern, the Grand Canyon, Crater Lake.

Loving this week! I feel like I am living instead of just surviving.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Bone Biopsy

When I went in for my CT guided biopsy, it was not what I thought. I took a look at my bracelet that they put on you when you get checked in for a procedure. It said "bone biopsy". I freaked out. It was not a pleasant procedure. I am still awaiting the results. Each day I call my doctor and his secretary promises he will call, but he hasn't. I will call tomorrow until she can't stand the sound of my voice. Until she recognizes my voice! I am afraid, but Christina, his other assistant said "usually, if it is bad news, the doctor would have called sooner". So I am banking on that statement.

I am due for chemotherapy on Monday, so I have to have another blood test to see how tanked my RBC are...they aren't good enough yet for chemo so I have to wait a week more, but I have to have an injection in my tummy this week to stimulate my bone marrow to create red blood cells.

I will write tomorrow when I get the results. Keep your fingers crossed for me!