I was taken to an examination room where the doctor felt my right buttock and confirmed that the tumor was palatable, and about the size of a golf ball. On the scan, it was minuscule. Not even a month later, it has grown rapidly. I'm afraid that the other tumors are growing too, now.
The doctor said that the Yondelis hasn't had enough time to work and it was too soon to give up on it, so I will go back Thursday and hopefully my blood will be acceptable enough for me to go forward with the second cycle.
I want to go in Thursday and ask the doctor to just take them out, whatever size they are, just cut them out of my body.
So if I go forward with chemo on Thursday, I know that I will be sicker than sick for the next week, especially the first few days. They will do another scan about 10 days into the second cycle. If it does prove to be not working, I will be switched to MAID protocol, most likely, says Dr. Chawla. The other doctor told me that my hair will fall out after the first cycle of that chemo. It is similar to my old cocktail, so if I go back to that, I will go back to Dr. Fink and let her administer the chemo from the comfort of a hospital room and my local hospital.
I'm scared...
Hang in there Sandy --- I'm so sad you are facing this again! You are a survivor, we've all told you that. Think of all the obstacles you've faced and conquered. Add f'g cancer to the list! Love you!
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Karen
Hi Sandy,
ReplyDeleteI am truly amazed at how much you have gone through and yet retain your wonderful spirit. You write well. Keep it up. I love you, cuz!
the other Karen (Robicheau)
Dear Sandy - my goodness you are an amazing writer! I love reading all the while wishing you were not in this predicament! We are here with you, and everyone I know that I could send an email to is praying for you. Love you so much! L
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